Written by Maeve

I’m sorry that I’m not sorry.  

The day that I met you, I didn’t see anything special about you. There was no magical moment for me like there was for you. You started to fall for me, and I couldn’t feel the same.  

You weren’t ever my first choice. I think I’ve spent years now wanting to want you, but never being able to do so. You don’t make me feel anything special or anything at all.  

I blame myself for your mistakes. You wouldn’t have treated those girls like that if I had been able to love you. I think I am the love of your life, but you are the opposite of mine.  

I resent you for loving me. I have pushed you away and pulled you back in. I’ve treated you like the option I see you as, but you still come back to me. You see me as your future, but I don’t see you as anything more than some guy.  

Thank you for being someone I know that I can get attention from. Someone who I know will always want me. 

I’m sorry that I don’t feel the same way about you as you do me. I’m sorry that I’m actually not sorry about that. I’m sorry that you love me, that’s something I would never wish on anyone.  

Love you never,  

Maeve