Written by Maeve

After taking some time to reflect, I have decided to tell you how I feel. Not how you want me to feel. Not how everyone tells me I should feel. But how I feel and how I’ve felt for quite some time. You’re my favorite part of each day. Talking to you makes me feel more seen, heard, and loved than I have felt with anyone else before. 

No one gets me like you get me. No one has lit up my life the way you have.

I’ve never felt so much for anyone before. That scares the life out of me. Each time you try to say you’re not good enough for me, I try to make myself feel relieved. Relieved that I don’t have to worry about anyone else. I never do. Each time you try to say you’re not good enough for me, I try to find the words to tell you that you’re wrong but I always come up short. I think back to every conversation we’ve had and I’m crushed. 

I think my feelings for you go beyond girlfriend and boyfriend. It’s real and it’s genuine.

You don’t say it, but I can tell in the way that you act that you feel the same way for me. I try to convince myself that you don’t, and then you always prove me that I’m wrong. Every time I am in a bad spot, you come back into my life. You bring me back to life when I think I’d never be able to breathe again. 

You say you want me to be happy, but I’m happy with you.

You say you can’t tell me right now, but I already know.

I’m not letting you flake out on me ever again. You don’t get to run away when things get serious because you’re afraid of the commitment. I’m afraid too, and I’m not bitching out, so you don’t get to either.

You brought me back to life again. I’m going to do the same for you. 

The night I accidentally told you I loved you, I meant it.

I don’t need a title, I don’t need to hear from you all the time. I want you to grow as a person and I want to do the same. I’m scared and I’m panicked and I have no idea what tomorrow is going to look like, but I love you.

All I want is for you to do the same.